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Well this past week was very interesting ... Starting talking to my amazing boy Jacob :)<3, came to the conclusion that this person that I can't seem to get over needs to take a hike. I've realized I deserve a lot more than all this pain he has put me through and although it's going to take some time, I AM GOING TO DO IT! Tears may fall, I may want to give in, but in the end I will be triumpth!! (dont quote me on the horrible spelling!)

(And for those of you that will know what I'm talking about) I got to like Stage 9 with this guy ... STAGE 9!!!! You know the very first one you were advised to keep for marriage... like ugh! this is like blah!! I wish I could go back and would of heard this series over 2 years ago!! Cuz that was only 1 off from 10, 2 off from 11, AND ONLY FRICKIN 3 OFF OF 12!! And that is my vent for tonight ... about that ...

Now back to Jacob :D lol He's an absolute sweetheart and I like him greatly to death!! Now hunn, if you're reading this, I know I say "Love you lots" but I cant be quite sure yet... we haven't even met .. lol! But thats going to change soon! I promise! :) But you know i like you greatly and I think you like me too ... but the flirting with Matt doesn't help!! And Lindsay! Grr on u :P lol anyway... lol Jacobs awesome and sweet and very caring ... hence his fling with Matt :P haha (biig insider) anyway... gonna end this now ... *END*